Blessed soul

so yeah... it's 8:39 am one more all nighter just took place ...

i stayed in the library until ten o'clock .. at which point it closed .. and they literally kicked us out ... we stayed on the stairs for a while ( where the signal was strongest ) and then ventured out into the grounds of Fox river ... i went online again on the steps between the lectures .. where power outlets were non-existent and went on skype (( which i think is the best messenger in the world)) ... yeah and i met reverse is convicted online .. on skype .. and we talked for almost an hour before my battery threatened to leave me hanging without saying goodbye.. so i rushed thru my goodbyes and got into the lecture rooms and plugged my charger in the " nick of time " it was fun .. man i'm gonna enjoy this holiday .. and i'm gonna enjoy having a FREE ..MODERATE SPEED.. INTERNET CONNECTION .. :D .. where a few guys wanted to play this new game on face book called " Who Has The Biggest Brain " it's fun .. and is a real time consumer/ waster wen ur bored ... anyway .. we combined our forces and got to the 3rd place out of 60 people ... anyway after that ... i went home and remembered that my dad was coming on the same night ... around 6:00 am .. and had to make a choice between two non-appealing choices ... i either sleep and miss him again( i did that last time .. and him being so nice .. he never mentioned .. it's like u can't but like him .. but then again he's my dad ) .. or i wait up until we go pick him up from the airport at 6 am .. i stuck with the latter ... and waited up .. smoked a few jays .. and waited until 5 .. i went and woke my uncles up to go get my dad .. waited up .. got caught smoking by my uncle who did not panic at all in fact .. i just pretended he wasn't there and finished my jay .. and went on wen i was done as though nothing happened .. and then i met my dad .. said hi .. cracked a few jokes and we both cracked up .. i really missed him .. or maybe his pocket .. i dunno :-p. well he joked about my debarring .. a little too much.. it was embarrassing .. but he told me not to dwell on it too long .. really lifted my spirits .. and then he surprised me with a birthday present .. which was this surprisingly *SICK* pair of shoes .. man dad really does have good taste .. oh yeah .. and i got enough kitkats to last me the whole holiday * does a little victory dance *.. and ended up in his sister's ( my aunt's ) house and sit her now typing this up while "chatting" with my cousins who think i'm not a " social person " because i don't come around very often .. what's up with that ? i am a really busy person .. busy enough to start a blog .. ok maybe no that busy but busy anyway ... man for now i need to stop this because my cousins are staring a little too hard .. i need to pick up the non-existent conversation we were having .. anything to make them happy
* looks at the situation and scratches his head *

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All the wrong reasons

It's been 2 days since my last post .. got a bit busy ... so here it is
for all the wrong reasons .. that's what i think ... every thing happened .. so i make mistakes .. i'm only human ..anyway

update
after my last post i went into paper 2 and did amazingly well .. stayed awake all day until like 10 .. then had to take my sister home ... man that girl is soo whiny... she whines about whining... yea i know ... but she's family .. anyway next day ..which was yesterday .. i woke up late .. barely made it to the practical .. did extremely bad .. fell asleep on my desk .. looked around to find no one left in the exam hall .. so i gave my paper in and walked out scratching my head ..everyone on the other side started laughing .. and i had this puzzled look on my face .. turns out my the desk was kinda serrated so my face was marked all over with stripes.. it was funny to look at .. i guess .. i smoked the last cigarette from yesterday's pack in celebration to "the end of my exams" ( i only had one subject to begin with. :p ). anyway .. and i went on my laptop for a minute only for my obnoxious sister to take my laptop to "Study" .. at that point u can only guess how much i hate her... moving on ... i spent the waiting time discussing something with someone ... and i realized that all of it was for the wrong reasons .. all of it .. i don't know anything about it .. i guess i was so happy it happened that i neglected any further efforts to make it better .. i just kept it at the same pace
and then i got bored .. i know i'm being and asshole .. i'm afraid that it wouldn't stand the test of time .. of distance .. and then some friend of mine told me that i shouldn't feel so bad .. coz it's the rule of long distances .. i dunno .. i hate myself for saying this .. i do love her .. man this is some weird shit..a year ago .. i wouldn't have believed that word came out of my mouth .. but people change .. and think i like the new me much more than the old me .. back to the main point i was making .. i just had to let this out .. and this is one long post .. but hey .. that's wat it's for right ? me letting it all out ..

and u know wat maybe that friend of mine is right .. it may have not stood thru the test .. man this is confusing .. but u know wat i'm glad i'll never have to find out .. it's about time i finished this up .. right now .. i'm in the library multitasking .. about to go eat .. yeah i'm getting a new charger .. don't have to borrow casserole's anymore .. and now i wait .. for the solution to my dilemma to come .. coz it will .. i just hope it comes in time

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So Far I'm Doing ... not Dying

phew!!!
serious bullet dodging ... i've done well so far ... turns out ... it's about what you study ..not how much u know .. basically study smart .. I'm in a break for paper 2 now going in in at 12:30 pm ... oh yeah . the chronicles .. wat happened exactly was that pulled off an all-nighter with next to no sleep last night .. studies as much as i could .. smoked two packs of bringi( REALLY HEAVY CIGARETTES.. in fact, so heavy that they don't label the packs with the content of the cigarettes .. was online during the act.. this was the gayest night of my life so far ..
well i guess there's a lesson to be learned ...never .. leave it till the last second .. coz trust me
it's not fun ...
off to study for paper 2 now
*fingers crossed*

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Do or Die

this is me panicking about the exam tomorrow .. which is pretty gay, seeing that i had ten days to study for it . well , i guess it is my fault afterall .. i haven't studied "jackshit" yet ... i got a long way to go ... the exam has 13 hrs left ... if i study non-stop from now to the time of the exam ... i still won't finish .. i guess i have to select what i should study .. discard topics i know anything about.. and focus on the ones i'm clueless about .. any way cramming shud start effectively any moment now.

one minute later ... i'm yet to be motivated .. i guess i have to take the initiative .. and actually start .. but i'm gonna blame myself for wasting my time no matter wat .. so i guess .. i should have good memories in the last hours of my career as a Dentist ... still nothing .. wow .. my senses are numbed by the sheer amount of things i have at stake and i still can't get myself to start .. well i guess .. all the credit foes to that prison/school i was in before here, our exams are frequent enough that we lost all the fear that comes with the imminence of exams .. yes i know .. i'm making futile excuses for myself. so feeble are they that i cannot even convince myself of it.

This is where i stand,i either do or die .. and you probably already know this .. but it's not fun .. yes i know this is the consequence of my own actions .. my own disregard to my responsibility .. my failure to comprehend the weight of the situation i'm in.

I think i just earned myself a forearm of righteousness ..

peace.. will not find a way into my mind today ..

I EITHER DO OR DIE

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Findings of a lost soul

true
The Truth Hurts
wise saying ... makes a lot of sense .. until u experience it .. then u just hate the idea.. any way moving back to the main topic .. this is a result of an epiphany I had .. well .. I found out that after such a long time of doing this .. all i've done is make it stable .. and that's not what i want .. but then again .. i got this voice in my head that i've smothered for too long .. and he's right .. it seems that i spent all this time to do it .. and then all what it is i accomplished was provide a base .. which is only the first step .. and now i must build on it .. so basically what i'm trying to say is that . During all those efforts i made to make it happen, i lost myself somewhere on the way .. And myself I need to find.for now i have more pressing matters to worry about .. like the exam i have tomorrow that i am not in the least ready for ... and now for cramming to start ..
i know ..
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